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Drowning

Lately, this is all that I can ever feel... Every time I think that things are looking up, I am sucked right back down again

Drowning
by Cas Sigers

I am drowning, trying to float in this sea of chaos.
Holding on, survival seemed easy, but my legs grow weary
And faith loses luster
As I see those me float by lifeless, I don't want to give in
Yet I'm drowning in this sea of turmoil
Where survival once seemed an option
The poison has spread through my body, slowly taking my breath
slowly taking my life
Thousands have become many, and many have become few
And I amongst the few, I have become tired, tired of gasping for air
I don't want to suffocate
Yet I'm drowning, drowning in this sea of rage.
An emotion that kills slowly
Overruling the shadows of sorrow, pain, and fear
This anger yields me to fight for what's rightfully mine.
Attempting to breathe fire into this entity once vibrant, now sedated.
Blood ice cold grows lukewarm. I will not give up.
Even though I'm drowning
In this sea of...

As your spell wears off
I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I laugh because I'm no longer drawn to you
I cry because I long for your smile

As your spell wears off
I don't know whether to rejoice or moan
I rejoice because never again will I know that I am on your mind
I moan because never again will I know that I am on your mind

As your spell wears off
You no longer hold me captive with your sexuality
You no longer hurt me with your callous looks
You no longer have to make those seldom phone calls

As your spell wears off
I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I laugh because I'll probably never see you again
I cry because I'll probably never see you again

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(Anonymous)
May. 10th, 2008 03:48 am (UTC)
stay strong
I'M NOT SURE WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH, BUT I PRAY YOU STAY STRONG
WHEN I WROTE THESE PIECES IT HEALED ME FROM MY BREAKUP,
I USED THEM AS LILY'S VOICE, AND NOW I CAN LAUGH ABOUT IT
THINGS WILL LOOK UP
BUT YOU HAVE TO WANT IT
AND KNOW YOU DESERVE IT

TAKE CARE
CAS
www.cassigers.com

(HOPE YOU LIKED MY BOOK)
rayne_destiny
May. 10th, 2008 09:21 pm (UTC)
Re: stay strong
I did, and thank you!
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